12.19.2007

Giving reality too much credit

Don't do it. Don't make reality more real and more important than it really is. It doesn't really matter. The job you do, the car you drive, the house you live in, your bank account balance, it doesn't really matter. It's not you. So don't give it too much credit.
Stop worrying about it.It's not that important. You know that it isn't, but you chose to delude yourself - throw your brain a little bone to chew on while your life goes by. It's easier to worry about that kind of crap, than to actually start wondering about what the hell is the point of it all.
So you worry, about money, about your health, about your family, about your job, about how you are not spending the little time you have on earth the way you should. But what you so desperately try to ignore is the bare fact that it doesn't really matter. It doesn't matter what you have, or what you look like, or what you do, the only thing that is really important is who you are.
You can clean the streets and know that you are the most powerful man on earth. Or you can look into your bosses eyes, and nod, and smile without wishing to kill him, once you finally realize the simple fact that it is all quite ridiculous. Your boss, your worries, your pains, your boredoms and humiliations, your wishes and longings, they are just little bones you give your brain to chew on.
And it isn't happy about it. You are not happy about it. You know that there is something more, you know that there is something else you should be doing, and yet you can't seem to remember what.
That's the catch. You shouldn't be doing anything. You should simply be. That's the whole trick to life. Simply being. Not doing, not wishing, not running, not even thinking, nor praying, simply existing. Breeding. Walking. Seeing. Listening. Enjoying the whole stupid little charade of sights, and sounds, and smells, and feelings that's happening all around you, and still knowing that it is silly and little, and that the very fact that you exist is more important the entire universe.
Because it is. To you it is.

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